Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Getting Old?

I found a gray hair attached to my head today. It so happens to be smack dab in the center of my head, so that's a pleasant find. I realize I'm 23 now, which means I'm old to some people, but I'm not THAT old, not old enough where gray hairs are normal, so I'll chalk it up to my schedule finally getting to me; as if the occasional break-out or 2 wasn't hint enough as it was. Typically I'm not one to worry about these things, and really, I'm not. Honestly, I never worried about my appearance much and I still don't for the reason that, well, it can't really get much worse and there's not much I can do about it anyway, so why worry? No, I bring this up because it probably means my body's trying to tell me something, which I will go ahead and promptly ignore. Yays!

In other news, I submitted my senior film 哥哥 (Big Brother) to the San Diego Asian Film Festival, so lets see if I get rejected from there or not.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Silver Docs Pt. 1

Friday was supposed to be the day by which Silver Docs was supposed to contact me and tell me that they regret to inform me, but my documentary "Ham" won't be screening at their festival; I still have yet to hear from them, in any capacity. Now, I'm not foolish enough to delude myself into thinking "oh, maybe they need extra time to consider my doc and maybe it'll get in," I know that in this industry, especially regarding matters as to whether something will be taken or not, no news is bad news.

The fact of the matter is that if the festival wanted to run the film, they would have told me earlier than their notify date. So the question is, to I just accept it as a "no" or do I call them, knowing the answer anyway, just to give them shit on mere principle?

Friday, May 21, 2010

1 year Later

Tuesday was 1 year since my graduation at Yankee Stadium, a day filled with, among other things that shouldn't be discussed, the realization that I was no longer going to be a student; the end of a long chapter in my life. A year later I sit, still stuck in limbo as I split my time between my unpaid internship and my part time night job. Things have gone very far from how they were planned, and maybe, in time, I will realize that that was for the better. Maybe I'm beginning to realize it now; but I'm not yet at the point where I'm willing to admit it.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Something I've Been Involved With Recently

With the retiring of Bill Moyers from his show on PBS, a new current events program has appeared and I've been fortunate enough to become involved with a segment of it.

Below is a link to the segment I've had the great opportunity to be involved with, I'd love to hear feedback about it.

Who Is Hamid Karzai

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

The Makings of a new Journal

In 2008 I took a class called Lyrical Resistance, a class that I thought would teach me about the history of art and protest in this nation but instead was a class that encouraged the thinking of how to incorporate your art into activism.

In this class everyone was encouraged to keep a journal or diary which we constantly wrote in or drew in, or whatever. They were personal things so what we did in them didn't matter, only that we did something in them.

I, skeptically, bought a giant book and kept it with me at all times but never expected to fill it. The cover had the date 2008 - 20 written on it, my logic being that the year I filled the book I would write the end numbers after the incomplete "20". I wrote in it every now and then and even took it with me to Prague when I studied abroad that summer and over time I realized how important that book was to me. In it housed ideas, journal entries and drawings; it had become an integral part of my life and creative growth.

Earlier this year I finally put the end date on it, completing the 2008-2010, in doing so closing out a 2 year chapter of my life, but since then, I have had nothing to write in, no notebook to take its place, no paper-bound building in which to house my thoughts, ideas and doodles.

Last night I decided to go ahead with my plan that I had put off for the past two years and bind my own book for this purpose. I've always wanted to try it ever since I heard how to do it from my friend Sheila. I've gotten my first stack of 5 pages bound together (which makes 10 pages for me since I folded them in half) and I managed to bend the sewing needle while doing it, but that's ok, I bent it back. Pictures and updates as it develops. Hopefully I'll have this done in the not too distant future.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Yay for sucking less than I was before.

My computer managed to find itself back on my desk, as opposed to on my stomach as I lie in bed while junk piles rest where my computer should be. I also managed to get myself to write again and draw again. It's a slow and tedious process, but every little bit counts. More updates a things develop. I know, not much has been going on here post wise, but maybe, hopefully, that'll change.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Big Brother Film

Monday I finally finished my film 哥哥. Today/yesterday I tried, unsuccessfully I might add, to get a copy to my Cantonese teacher from last year. Will post it up here in its entirety once it's finished being rejected from festivals.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

On Wit

"You're turning out to be a real wise-ass".

"Oh, if you think my ass is smart you should hear my mouth".